No focus

I have no focus. I have three windows open writing and one open to play games. No focus at all tonight. I really need focus since at the rate I’m going I’ll be working 90 hours a week. Well, there are only 24 hours in a day and I have to sleep at some point. I have to work more than ever now. The first of the month is here and it’s time to pay the bills again.

My tax refund should be here by the end of next month. Any other year they would be a much needed relief this year deciding where to spend it, actually on which repair and bill to spend it is making me a nervous wreck. So far the weather isn’t terribly hot which means I have time to find an air conditioning solution. I know that I have no desire to repair the duct work since that would cost more than this place is worth at the moment with all the repairs needed on it. The well has been acting up and cutting itself off so I’m thinking about fixing that but I don’t want to have to pay someone to come replace the pump. Plus that means having to clean out the shed and there isn’t anywhere to put the stuff in it unless I tear down my back porch and take a crash course in replacing it.

OK my articles won’t write themselves so I best get a move on. Tomorrow is a school day and we’re expecting storms tomorrow night.

Ouch, OUch, OUCH

Well, that about sums it up. OUCH. Why am I screaming ouch? Well after a rather unproductive day, quiet and boring day yesterday the night proved to be rather painful. Do you know why trailers have trim on the corners of the wall? It’s to cover the seams and the nails they used to put them together. Do you know what happens when they get old and worn and come down? They leave tiny nails and staples exposed that you can’t see without a magnifying glass you know the ones that you drop and never find again? Well, last night I managed to find them with my baby toe.

Yes, I was trying to go into Theresa’s room for the pull-up she changes into at bedtime and stubbed my toe. Or so I thought. It hurt like crazy, I looked down and it was skinned but not bleeding yet. yet is the keyword. I went to walk across the room and it went to hurting more and more. By the time I made it to the dresser it was bleeding, changing colors and swelling. I have a nice gash in it.

Today the swelling has gone down a little, it’s almost the right color and the bleeding stopped. It’s still bandaged however b/c air seems to hurt at the moment. What hurts more is when tiny hands attempt to touch it or run by within an inch of it. Well, other than my boo-boo nothing much going on so I’ll be going for now.

80 degrees in the house

Seriously it’s almost 4:30 in the afternoon and it’s right at 80 degrees inside. It’s not even the first of March which means this summer is going to be rather unpleasant for us unless I find an air conditioning solution quickly. Another $400 light bill is one more than I can pay. We’re $341 over budget which will get added to the actual bill that we have to pay during the month of October. At the rate we’re going that’ll be $1,000 easy.

I was reading Annie’s post for the day and the dream home she mentioned looks nice. It’s rather easy to maintain as well. I wouldn’t be experiencing these air conditioning problems if I lived in it; a little time on a rack and a lot less money and it’d be taken care of. It finally got too hot in here for me so I turned the fan on for the central unit in addition to the fans that I have on in the windows and on the floor. The problem? I wouldn’t be able to drive my own home.

In the meantime my tax refund (my portion of the refund) should be here by the end of March. By that time it’ll be time to pay six months of auto insurance to make paying the monthly bills easier. There are two oil changes and tune ups. I need to put some money up for new tires on both vehicles. Hopefully that’ll leave a little money to save for emergencies. Well, after I find a suitable air conditioning solution such as portable AC that can be moved if I ever manage to move and costs less to replace than the current unit costs to fix.

Well, I’m done complaining for the day so I’ll be going.

Need More Hours in The day

Recent events have hit my household rather hard which has led me to attempting to add more hours to the day in order to get as much work as possible done. It would seem that the gas prices aren’t the only thing on the rise. Food, utilities, Internet and almost everything else under the sun is seeing a rise in costs. I took some time off recently because I was exhausted and while I enjoyed my vacation it’s over. The next vacation is a mere dream as I struggle to keep with the costs.

I require more hours in the day to get everything done. As you know by now I have an Autistic toddler and work from home as a freelance writer. I re-evaluated my income needs and the amount of work I would have to do. Currently I’m using approximately four writing sites on a regular/semi-regular basis. I also have five days a week of therapy to take my child to.

I’ve decided to use my Amazon gift cards to replace the battery for my laptop. This will allow me to take it with me two days a week and work while my youngest is in therapy. That will give me an additional 2 hours and 20 minutes to work that I did not have before. The other three days we only have a half hour session which makes hauling the laptop a bit of a bother. The other days I’ll take that hour and a half to rest. We usually run errands those days so I’ll feel more comfortable leaving my laptop at home.

Why would I need more hours in my day? In addition to working from home I have to clean the house or we might as well move into a tent and get rid of everything. Call me crazy but I like the ability to walk around without falling over things. We have expenses beyond the normal for most people. Remember my Autistic child? She has about a dozen supplements and with her behavior lately we may be putting her back on a strict diet. Recent events have hit my household rather hard which has led me to attempting to add more hours to the day in order to get as much work as possible done. It would seem that the gas prices aren’t the only thing on the rise. Food, utilities, Internet and almost everything else under the sun is seeing a rise in costs. I took some time off recently because I was exhausted and while I enjoyed my vacation it’s over. The next vacation is a mere dream as I struggle to keep with the costs.


I require more hours in the day to get everything done. As you know by now I have an Autistic toddler and work from home as a freelance writer. I re-evaluated my income needs and the amount of work I would have to do. Currently I’m using approximately four writing sites on a regular/semi-regular basis. I also have five days a week of therapy to take my child to.

I’ve decided to use my Amazon gift cards to replace the battery for my laptop. This will allow me to take it with me two days a week and work while my youngest is in therapy. That will give me an additional 2 hours and 20 minutes to work that I did not have before. The other three days we only have a half hour session which makes hauling the laptop a bit of a bother. The other days I’ll take that hour and a half to rest. We usually run errands those days so I’ll feel more comfortable leaving my laptop at home.

Why would I need more hours in my day? In addition to working from home I have to clean the house or we might as well move into a tent and get rid of everything. Call me crazy but I like the ability to walk around without falling over things. We have expenses beyond the normal for most people. Remember my Autistic child? She has about a dozen supplements and with her behavior lately we may be putting her back on a strict diet.

Expenses are outrageous. The last two light bills alone were enough to make me want to cry. The mornings are the time when I’m the most likely to get work done; unfortunately they are also the time when I’m less likely to be awake. Once the little one gets up getting work done becomes harder even when we’re home from therapy. Her father’s idea of watching her is to sit in one spot and yell across the room for a child with communication difficulties to stop what’s she’s doing.

I think I can manage to stay up later at night. Thursday night is my t.v. night but that doesn’t mean that I can’t work while I watch. I just have to focus on what I’m doing more.  As I’m rambling away I could be working so I’m going to get back to it now.

Expenses are outrageous. The last two light bills alone were enough to make me want to cry. The mornings are the time when I’m the most likely to get work done; unfortunately they are also the time when I’m less likely to be awake. Once the little one gets up getting work done becomes harder even when we’re home from therapy. Her father’s idea of watching her is to sit in one spot and yell across the room for a child with communication difficulties to stop what’s she’s doing.

I think I can manage to stay up later at night. Thursday night is my t.v. night but that doesn’t mean that I can’t work while I watch. I just have to focus on what I’m doing more.  As I’m rambling away I could be working so I’m going to get back to it now.

babbling.

The more I need to work the less I actually feel like working. It might be different if I had a little more help but as usually I have very little help and am surrounded by people who voice opinions about things that they don’t know anything about. They seem not to be as many of them at the moment, they know I’m miserable. Let me be happy and they’ll rush to butt in. I have no idea why but those that are around me love to see me miserable; they must every time I’m happy they rush in to ruin it.

Thinking About Rising Gas Prices and Increasing My Work Load

The beginning of the summer saw changes to my work habits and approach. The biggest change was not taking private clients anymore. At the time it was a much needed and relaxing change that allowed me to focus on other things that had been neglected. I was planning to work less and get by with what I had on hand until I could get something I needed replaced or purchased. Well, it almost worked.

I managed to make it through the summer of 2010; money was tight but I managed. Now I’m facing summer of 2011 wondering if everything will be caught up in time to enjoy the summer. There have been changes in the payment methods of the various writing sites that I utilize to make a living in recent months which makes earning a living a bit more difficult. I can only imagine that the increased difficulty is caused by the fact that for me working from home was a way to do what I wanted when I wanted.

It’s been months since I wrote an article on how much work I would have to do in order to keep up with expenses. I managed to keep up with the expenses without working as much as I thought I’d have to. No, I did not find a magical solution. Instead I cut costs drastically by making more of a lot of the items that we use around the house each day. I’d played with making what I used in the past and even drastically removed chemical cleaners; the removal was more of a safety issue than a savings issue. I’m just not that comfortable with chemicals.

The cost of gas and the amount of work I’ve been able to accomplish lately means that there will not be any vacations this summer. The five days a week of therapy are going to be fun especially since we have to make it a point to run all errands between here and there. I have no idea what I’m going to do during extremely stormy weather since I prefer to be in a safer place for it but I’ll figure it out. I have a feeling that at least part of the yard will be cut with an old fashioned reel mower provided I ever find one.

I have no idea just how much more work I’m going to have to do each month to make it through but I’ll be working a lot more. I’ll continue to attempt bread making. The next time I won’t rush it though so that I come out with something resembling bread instead of a doughy center. I’m using Amazon gift cards to order a hand mixer so that it’s easier for me to use. I’m also going to get another hand held can opener b/c I hate electric can openers. And with that I lost my thought so I’ll be going now.

No therapy today

We didn’t have speech yesterday and we won’t be having it today. The therapist has a family emergency of her own to deal with, she deserves time off but I do wish it was under better circumstances. Theresa is behaving well for her age today.

We’ve only had one accident in the area of potty training so far today. When she did it she came to me screaming “paper towel, paper towel” she wanted to clean up the mess she had just made. That’s a good sign even though she didn’t tell me that she had to use the potty; it’s an acknowledgement that she was wet. That’s an awesome sign.

I spent a few hours picking her toys up last night just to find my living room floor in order to vacuum it. Guess what she’s now in the process of undoing everything that I picked up. I’ll be cleaning the kitchen a bit and baking homemade bread today. I’ll be squeezing in a little more work too because I don’t have a choice.

just saving a little money today

So far this year is not going anywhere near as well as I had hoped it would when it began. Although considering we began the year in debt I’m not all the sure why I’m surprised that it’s not going as I had hoped it would. The loans that were took out at the end of the year and the beginning of this year require less than $190 to pay off at last count; the problem they keep getting interest charges so while that my be the payoff now left alone it will be a lot higher and we’re running out of money before month. See a problem?

I know for a fact that my refund if we end up with one has been reduced because of an offset. Depending on the amount of the offset I still have to come up with money to cover six months of auto insurance, the overage on the budget billing and a few repairs to vehicles. Door handles on one, two oil changes so we know how long it’s been between them and an overall inspection of the front end on mine. Then I need to put some money away for tires.

I have found that eventually I’ll have to go back to private clients but I’m putting that off for as long as I can. I was thinking of starting a website but at the moment I’m just too unorganized. I’m doing a quick internet search of the topics I want to write on to see just how many results come up and thinking I’ll focus on the ones with the fewest results for now.

The only thing I know for sure is that at the moment I’m saving some money on the light bill. My heating and air have been off for the last few days. It’s been pleasant enough that if the windows are cracked at night it’s comfortable all day long. I’ve managed to get nearly all the laundry caught up because it’s been warm enough to hang them out and my clothes line holds three to four loads at a time. That’s all for now.

Oh Well, No Three day weekend for me

It’s Sunday evening and most people are either ending a relaxing weekend or smiling at the fact they have one more day left of it. I on the other hand am finishing up a weekend of doing four loads of laundry and struggling to get a few articles done. I managed to do a maybe three all weekend and write a paragraph or two on articles that I’ve been working on.

I’ve taken all but one covering off the living room windows facing the road to make it easier to open them the rest of the way when Theresa goes to bed. These lovely floor to ceiling windows open wide enough that she can easily push on the screen and fits nicely into the opening if she should decide that she wants too.

I had a look at an article I did last year sometimes on the advantages of freelance writing. I know the link takes you to the second page it’s intentional.

I managed to vacuum a little just to discover that my vacuum needs a filter or a belt. It’s not picking up everything that it should. OK I’m done complaining so I’ll be going now.

Out of Ideas

I’m running out of ideas. Nothing seems to be unique anymore, original content yes, unique content no. I’ve done short and sweet news as fast as I can which isn’t very fast chasing a four year old. Then there are the editorials, diary pages and articles that are submitted for upfront payment just to see if they will get one before I submit them. Lately it’s a hit and a miss on which ones I should wait out and which ones I should go ahead and submit.

Tomorrow I have to mail my other half’s check stub as proof of income, the state tax return and a child support payment. We get an entire $18 back from the state this year, last year we broke even. At the rate gas prices are going up I’ll be able to buy a gallon with it by the time it gets here. My other half’s car has a digital gas gauge that I’m beginning to hate  dislike because it goes crazy from time to time. The only time I’m sure how much gas is in the car is when I first fill up and when the low fuel light comes on.

I need to write but I keep stopping and trying to clean up this and that. The last time everything was in its place at one time was before we moved in and everything was in boxes. At the moment there are a number of boxes by my front door full of clothes that the little one has outgrown to give to charity since my mother-in-law isn’t coming to get them it would seem.

OK I’ve lost my train of thought and I need to put a hyper child to bed. Goodnight world.